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Hangover: "a state of physiological and psychological imbalance following excess of, commonly alcohol, characterised by preoccupations with rambling, hunger for vegimite and OJ, and self reflection"
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Friday, February 15, 2002
finally some photies. "the world doesn't go away when you close your eyes" Guy Pearce-Momento. todays news proves it true even when you are on the other side of the world. today i was sitting in my second swedish language lesson. we have now learned to count to 10, introduce ourselves and our country (pronounced ow straa-liennn) and a thought burst into my head. i am completely not stressed. i have free time. everywhere. i have shit loads. i have so much that i haven't even noticed. i have been blindly living in a neurotic persons utopia, and i didn't even notice. i have reached that ability to relax and not really care-i'll can do anything tomorrow, or the next day, if necessary, or i can do nothing. james dowlings dad only goes on holidays for two weeks or more; any less and he isn't able to relax enough. well i am here, and well it is sort of weird. i don't think i can remember being so carefree, or non-goal focussed. this week i have slept 9 hours or more for 5 nights in a row. you know you are a bum when you have to set your alarm clock for pm. the weird thing is that going over seas allows you to "create" the person you want to be. but having spare time is even more liberating. i am not a medical student for 100 hours a week, or a rower, or a family man, or a person on holidays relaxing. instead i am defined by what i think, and do on that day. my day to day actions define me more than being a student of history, or an exchange student, or a rower, or a anything else i have or might be. talk about new terratory. so what do i do?? my other journal, the one that competes with this one, has progressively changed. whereas i used to write in it for control freak reasons, catching every thought and developing it, it has now become filled with sketches and doodlings, poems and stories. When have i ever before doodled on a page? the best part is that it is really intense- i can do it for hours and not notice the time. (only james crunching the lego or when i used to build skate board ramps comes close). then i look back and feel like roger green has been round. or the doors. or bob. i'm reading Dante-the divine comedy- which is really visual and well intense and brooding. but i want to see where this mood takes me. even my viking history lessons are being caught in this imaginative state. it is late though. enjoy the photos. Thursday, February 14, 2002
 ah ha, things are working. here are a few pics, and expect more now that i have finally deciphered pippa's instructions. |
